…but I keep trying.
Getting back in the swing of things. Posting reviews for books on Edelweiss, now off to review on Amazon, for the writers. Working on my own writing, slowly. Perhaps I’ll finish my novel in the next year or two.
At this point I’m wed to finishing this novel, but I’m worried it’s gonna take years. I’ve been working on it for years, off and on, and the tangled narrative clearly demonstrates this. I’m trying to be patient with myself, non-judgemental, but I am honestly intimidated. This thing is a mess. There’s uneven voice, pacing, inconsistencies borne of it’s prolonged creation. I don’t know where everyone is, and at this point, I need to know where they are, even if they are off-screen. I started this adventure pantsing it, and now I’ve got a lot of loose threads to either cut loose, or incorporate into the weave at the end of the story. It’s probably going to take months just to get caught up in Aeon Timeline. Then the fun part – working on the notebook full of fixes and to do’s I’ve begun.
Time. There isn’t any. Or rather, there’s not enough. I’ve been working retail for years, now, and while it’s a good job at an indie bookstore, it’s hella hard work and tiring. And I’m a single mom, “unevenly yoked” (his ironic words) to an ex who doesn’t step it up and do his part. So I’m worn out. The middle of my life snuck up on me and now I have to fight for breathing room. There’s time to rest, but not enough time to rest, get all my required BS done, and write/create as I’d like. Imma get there, but damn – the work I still have to do on my in-progress novel is staggering.
A couple of years ago I used my NaNoWriMo coupon to bag on to a copy of Aeon Timeline 2 I’ve fiddled with it before, but I’ve just recently realized it may be the tool I need to pick up the narrative thread of the story. I’m a single mom, and there are many moments I just can’t keep up with daily writing. Some days, I’m just happy to be able to get up and go to work and get my bills paid. So a few weeks ago, when I got up the gumption to take another look at it, I found I’d both lost my place and had a billion threads to tie up, give or take a million or two. So I opened a fresh timeline and got to work.
It’s excruciating and unbearable in someways – lots of scenes to track, and I’m doing my absolute damnedest to not look at the quality of words in this still unpolished draft. On the other hand, wow, what a thing I will have when I am done! You might check out the program if you get a chance. Some aspects of it are pretty intuitive, but to be frank, you may end up hitting the help documents and even YouTube to understand it’s finer points – it can be a bit fiddly.
So I’ve had this domain for about 8 months, and I’ve done absolutely nothing with it, except change the theme about a million times. True – real life has been heavy, taking up a huge amount of space in my concentration and “spare time.” But I refuse to quit moving, and will keep trying to make this space for myself. So, here’s my obligatory beginning post, full of uninteresting cheesiness. Watch this space.